Implosion

Originally written on 9/8/24
if given the option,
I would kill myself
with an implosion.
starting with my brain:
it will be ripped apart,
it will be mangled,
the internal fighting
collapses onto itself
then my skull:
it will be crushed
it will be beautiful
my shape will be forgotten
and I will love it
then my skin:
it will be shattered
it will be stained
blood will drip out
as the skin rips in
and in the moment
before my death
my eyes will twist inwards
I'll see the collection
of everything I hate
and I will be happy
seeing it shrink
seeing it implode
until my eyes are crushed
and i am no more